Didn't blog last night because I reached home rather late and was drained physically. During CGM when we were worshipping, I could feel my head spinning. I knew something wasn't very right. This was the second time this week. The 1st time was when I was teaching in the school on Wed. Suddenly felt that the whole world swirled for about 10 seconds before I sat down to steady myself. Thank God I'm fine. Probably fatique.

I spent the whole day today to recuperate. Slept for many many hours. Finished reading "Mister God, this is Anna". Read "Answers to Life's Difficult Questions" - by Rick Warren and took down notes of the important points. I actually bought this book for a friend. Find the things written inside pretty useful and applicable to me as well. I hope to finish the whole book today so that I can pass the book to my friend tomorrow when we meet.

Just finished watching "The Pursuit of Happiness" and I just felt blessed. Many a times I'll feel that life isn't really fair to me. I don't blame God, but I tend to feel that I'm less fortunate as compared to many of my friends. Somehow, friends around me have parents, aunties, uncles and relatives that love them a lot and blesses them with things that they don't have to earn or pay for themselves. Me? My parents and relatives love me too BUT I bought all things for myself ever since I was young. I paid for my own furniture, hi-fi set, tv, encyclopedia, discman, mp3 player, computer etc. I never knew how to open my mouth and ask for people to buy things for me. Where did I get all the money to get all these things? I saved up by not eating during recesses. Now, when I just don't have any more savings, no one to provide for me, I felt pitiful. Probably even bitter on the inside.

Sometimes I asked myself, why don't I have rich uncles and aunties that'll bless me with a sum of money to buy things that I like? Why do I have to work harder than others just to get my needs met? I guess my focus is wrong. Love and blessing is not measured by how much I'm given materially.

I'm blessed because I have a roof over my head, I can still pay for my own school fees, own and use a laptop, feed myself and have a comfortable bed to sleep at night. There'll always be people that are living in a worser or better state than I am. I am blessed! Just as I am. I don't have to compare myself with others. I am contented- I'm happy today even though I have dreams and ambitions that haven't been fulfilled.

It's always my attitude towards my circumstances that decides whether I'm happy or not. I make a decision to be happy and contented from today onwards. That's what matters in life.

Not forgetting I'm blessed with lots of beautiful friends in my life. God is definitely good!